I’ve been uncovering a massive shadow side along the journey of “accessing my highest potential.”
With this almost obsessive orientation towards “expansion,” I’ve been subtly telling myself..
...I am never enough exactly as I am...
I want you to explore yourself, inside and out.
I want you to get intimate with your own shadow, just as much as your own light.
I want you to know yourself so wholly that no aspect of you is unseen.
Underneath my exuberant belief that we are spiritual beings having a human experience, I doubted whether what I sought was attainable at all. I had moments where I wondered if I was doing something wrong.. I felt like perhaps I had not been deemed worthy of the eternal embrace.
I felt I had to do more to prove myself.
If you listen closely enough, I'm betting you'll find that what you thought was you falling off your path is actually life redirecting you, providing you valuable lessons you wouldn't have had otherwise.
I'm guessing that when you keep going, you'll look back and realize that the Universe was quietly preparing you to find your purpose & fulfill your mission
What living with Lyme has taught me more than anything else is how to have deep gratitude for this human experience. It has taught me to enjoy the little moments, both the ones filled with light and the ones filled with pain, because no matter how shitty the moment may feel, it's just an experience and at some point, eventually, there will be something else to experience. It has taught me that the only constant in life is change, and that instead of pushing against what is happening, I can surrender and choose to learn from it instead.
I breathed a deep sigh of relief and gave gratitude for the opportunity being presented to me-- the chance to let go of the old belief that I have no control over my body and the space to witness the ever-present healing power that my body holds. Moments later, my felt the tension moving up from my neck and out through the top of my head and later I realized that without pain, there would be no opportunity to experience the magic of relief.
"Realizing that all of our struggles are there for a reason is also an important piece of the puzzle. Every struggle is there to teach you a lesson and to push you forward. Ask yourself: what is the gift in this? What is this pain trying to teach me? Accept that you may not have all the answers. Accept that you may not know the next steps, the timeline and the solution. Surrender to the process. Trust the process. And follow your heart."
November 9, 2013 was also the night that I fully realized the name my parents had given me, Casie, the name I had been going by for the first 23.5 years of my life, was not in fact the name that my higher self wanted to be called. In earlier ceremonies, I was shown very clearly the path that my soul had chosen to walk in this lifetime, and the power behind the names we go by in helping us to achieve our highest potential.
This is how I came to be called Arianna-- this is my "soul name."
